A lot of times ah, I tell you ah, I am fucking furious. But a lot of times, I tell myself.. It's not worth it, you're better than that. You're wayyyyy better off than her. Okay so boyfriend is not with the bitch anymore. (Like I said, nak tau cerita, tanya aku personally.) And so, boyfriend has deleted her off FB and everything possible because she is fucking scary like that. A day after boyfriend was 'okay', he checked his FB and found out that that crazy woman just messaged him. Two messages, in a row. Aku macam nak campak aje acid kat muka dia. But thennnn, I shall not. Because, I AM BETTER THAN THAT LAH FUCK.

So yes, dia message and ask where my boyfriend was and why he left her whatever fuck. I don't care. Now that my boyfriend is off her friend list, I am a bit relieved. But then, it doesn't stop there. She keeps bloody adding him in FB and just now, member post gini ah kat FB;

And anywaysss, my cute lil' Erwin was sooo cute;
Sister; Sape smelly?
Erwin; Erwin!
-_____________-"

And brother in law taught him something new the other time;
Me; Erwin, tuhan kat mane?
Erwin; Tuhan kat atas! Atas sekali!
Hahahah! He's soooo adorable!

I slept with him just now over at Granny's. Oh yesss, come to think of it, my boyfriend and I wore the same colour for today! Tak janji lah but like jiwa lah kira. -_-" And yes M.Alif, I love you so much. Thanks for making my day baby. Had a great 17th with you. More monthsaries and years to come. More fights and happiness, till the very end, Insyallah. :)

Dah, I have to sleep. Haven't been sleeping well, you know? That explains my weight loss I guess. Goodnight! :)

Hellooooooooo.

This is me now.

This was me a few months ago. Mampos. Take care sia.

Sorry for not updating. My blog is soooo boring, I know. Everything is about emotions. Macam budak emo bodoh sia aku. Gosh. And anyways, in case you are wondering, I STILL HAVE A BOYFRIEND. Decided to accept him back in my life because of some reasons. And the reasons are really valid. I can't post it here. It's inappropriate. If you wanna know then ask me in person. :D And yesssss, things are back on track. Who says he doesn't love me? Ni part aku perasan sikit but never the mind, I don't care pon. I've been seeing him two days straight you know! And I had one of the bestest best time on Tuesday! Hohoho. Kira macam re-living the moments we used to have. I am very sure that this stupid experience will make us stronger. If not him, at least me. Insyallah. :)

And yessssss, school's baccck! OMG, my timetable is sooo slack nak mampos, I'd rather they push all the lessons from Monday to Wednesday and let us have our rests on Thursday onwards. I wish lor! But I can stop wishing and start snapping back to reality. And I should start working too! Tak klaka eh Attica. Your 'rich' moments only last for a while. SO PLEASE GET YOUR BLOODY BIG LAZY ASS TO WORK! Actually ah, I'm really tired of working. Sometimes I wish money can just drop from the skies like rain. Woooohoooo! Confirm best gila. And when that time comes, everybody will turn fat except for me. Chey macam betol. Merepek merepek. So my point is, I need cash. Cash to support my never ending 'I want to buy this and that' attitude. Bahahaha. Best you! So this is a hint lah actually. But too bad that boy gemok is unable to read my blog (I just don't want him to know about how I feel so aku punye pasal k?) because this one is actually going out to him. SOMETIMES, YOU MUST LAYAN MY PERANGAI BABI OKAY BABY BECAUSE I LIKE NEW CLOTHES. I LOOK NICE, YOUR EYES PN TENGOK COLD (direct translation of sejuk. Pecah siak). So yes lor. I don't know why I am crapping at 3 in the morning but takpe, layankan je.

And yesss, all those girls out there reading my blog, (only applies to people that I know. People that I don't know, please make friends with me. HAHA.) JOM KLUA JOM! I want a girls night out! Sick of the dickheads. I'm always out with the opposite sex, I need a change. Not a change of clothes, change of environment eh please eh. Heheheheh.

Ohhh yesss, tomorrow, I will be heading for a swim. ALONE. Need to tone up lah. I am back to my 'I want to jaga badan' attitude. Tak boleh sia gemok gemok gini. People see pn takde appetite. Haha. Now now, warning ah. If you're not the sort who likes to swim, you can forget about following me. I have to accomplish my 50 laps before I leave the complex. So yes, you get my drift? Tak sudah, nanti dah dapat bilang kay!

I better kemas the rumah now if not I'll get some kicking in the ass. GOOODNIGHT!

So what do you do when your boyfriend/ex-boyfriend says that they need time?

You ignore them and..

PARTY!

Because I know that life doesn't only revolve around boys. I have my future and loads of other dates waiting. So yes, anyone wants to date me? LOL. I am actually craving for some seesha session. How girls? :)

This is why I hate it when you come around.
This is why, a lot of times, I always wanted to let go of things.

Your mind is still on her and here I am, still with you. Fucking unfair that's what it is. I don't know why the hell I have to go through all these. I need to distant away, again. I don't want to be close to you anymore. I don't need another conversation. I don't wanna sit and think about what you're doing when you're not calling. I'm too used to you. I'm too used to being so attached to you.

This whole thing is taking it's toll on me. No matter how I try, it's killing me. I need to be away from you, from the thoughts of you.

Because I know that at the end of the day, I'm not the one you're thinking of.
But they say patience pays. Should I wait or should I go?
)'=

Well hello there. I am oh so bored right now. I shall resume my sleep later but meanwhile, I'll blog.

So let's see. How was my week? Last week was full of unexpected stuffs but I'm not gonna blog about it. Went for jalan raya with Alif and friends and non-friends on Sunday. Pretty much impromptu I must say. Went to Alif's house first. His Mum really do cook gooood delicious food! Me loves it! :D And the oat cookies were fantastic. Not the normal lemau one hor! But I only ate a piece. Malu lor! And I caught the flu bug instantly after stroking brownie pie. I.AM.FINALLY.ALLERGIC.TO.CATS. Thanks ah. Alif's plan was classic.

"You visit my house, I visit yours and that's it lah."

-______-" And so, I knew that he was going to fall asleep once he reaches home. So, I suggested that he call his friends up. Only Asari picked up so we headed for Tampines.

But wait, pictures of our smelly faces first;

Had a nice chat with Asari's parents. Nice people. And then Mike came together with Ida. And unexpectedly, Kamal and gf came. -____-" The whole situation got even more awkward. Actually, the whole outing was. There were quite a few times where I broke into a fight with Alif. Annoying but true. All because of who? Heheh. You should know lah. But in case you don't know, I have nothing against them hor. I am sooo neutral like that. Because why? Because I am fucking innocent, that's why.

So let's ignore Sunday's story. My Monday was fun and perfect! :D Spent time with elder sister and the little brat, Erwin. He is getting oh so smart already lor! Gosh. I had a very very very nice time spending at SIX and playing with the little brat. Pictures at FB. Aku malas nak post. And yesterday was the best cause I got to go shopping! Only bought a few things lah. I already spent 100 over bucks online oi! Oh yes, gotta collect my shoes later on. And meet Alif. I guess.

Okay done. Been sneezing and I'm irritated. Goodbye.

I just lost it.